Alfred was Toris’ first love because, for the first time, someone else was taking care of him. That is why he was not sad when others such as Australia took that attention from him because Toris still loved Ivan, Feliks, Natalie, Alfred, the rest of the Baltics, and everyone who ever touched his life.
Toris always felt the need to protect Natalie like a precious flower but only ever thought of her as a sister.
Ivan never abused him, he just didn’t want to leave the one he loved. The scars that are on Toris’ back are from all the wars he fought. Each crease a testament to how many lives were lost.
Toris loves to care for people and this is his curse because Ivan needed him and so did each of the people who ever entered his life, even Alfred sometimes needed him. But the difference was Alfred could be there when others couldn’t. Toris still remembers the 1920’s with nostalgia but keeps moving on with his life, forever grateful for the experience he was given. After all, nations will have several loves through out their life times.
Alfred’s first was Australia because he so reminded him of his father figure: Arthur. Ivan’s was Alfred because of the childish side they share. And so it goes on. — circuitriderofdreams